Physically, this pregnancy has been a breeze. Which is why, I suspect, I've landed myself on bed rest. I have a two-page to-do list and tons of energy to keep plowing through it. And that's exactly what I've been doing. Mentally - I'm done with this pregnancy. I'm tired of worrying about every little twitch and glitch that happens to my body on a daily basis and wondering if this is the moment when I'll go into labor. The specialist that I'm seeing wasn't worried enough to give me a steroid shot for Baby J's lung development. He thinks I'll keep carrying him for approximately four more weeks. And ever since my 20-week appointment when they first noticed the shorter cervix length, I've had it in my head that we would be delivering around three weeks early (no idea why). So here's to hoping that my intuition and the doctor's prediction are both wrong and that this kid stays in there until 40 weeks. Baby J currently weighs 4 lbs 5 oz and is very healthy and strong.
In addition to me going crazy, we may need to have this kid sooner rather than later if we want any of our dishes or other valuables to survive. I really thought that getting clumsy towards the end of pregnancy was just an old wives tale because I seemed to be doing fine. Not so much anymore. So far, we are down three (of my favorite) bowls, two glasses and one container of powder foundation. The foundation spill was probably the best. I've taken to carrying a box fan with me everywhere I go (in addition to blasting the AC). The fan is especially useful when getting ready in the morning. It helps prevent melting when I'm blow-drying my hair or trying to put on my make-up. When I dropped the foundation container, not only did it spill everywhere on the floor, but the fan also spread the powder all over me and the rest of the bathroom. Awesome.
Apparently I still look "cool". Two weeks ago I went to Wal-Mart to pick up a few things. This kid ran up to me just as I walked in the door and said, "Hey you look cool (at which point I glanced down at my belly and thought, really, I look cool??). Will you buy me some alcohol?" What on earth?? It took me a minute to process and then I just busted up laughing. No, I will not buy you any alcohol. Sheesh.
Cory and I have been attending some birthing classes. We've taken two and still have two more to go. We watched the infamous birthing video in the first class. Honestly, it wasn't as bad as I remember it being when I watched it 20 years ago in 8th grade health class. But my poor husband…Cory was certain he was going to throw-up. And I couldn't help thinking, really, you can skin a bear but you can't watch a birthing video??? I do not understand. I've already warned my doctor that she may have two patients in L&D if Cory goes down. She just laughed and said that they are used to watching the husbands pretty closely (if not discretely) during delivery. It's good to know that they'll keep an eye on him so that I can focus on the task at hand.
And speaking of the task at hand, it's definitely starting to become much more clear that there is no good way to get out this pregnancy. I've decided that I don't want to go through L&D. Surely someone can come up with something better during the next four weeks??? Or even better…Baby J can just stay in there forever more and we'll call it good!
I am so sorry about the bedrest, but I am so thrilled that you have such awesome docs. And I understand the fear that every little thing is "it" - I remember saying that I felt like I couldn't trust my body during pregnancy, which isn't the feeling you want. Positive thoughts for you - and your cervix! ;)
ReplyDeleteWith Aud's preeclampsia and early delivery, she also felt like she was not ready to go on maternity leave. She was working on some important projects from the hospital room while she was there on observation. She knew it could happen at any time - but then the reality set in that it really COULD happend any ANY time. :) However, you just gotta trust that intuition. About two weeks before - she majorly felt the urge to 'get ready'... so get ready we did.
ReplyDeleteThat's funny about the nurses keeping watch on the husbands. Makes me wonder what rating the nurse would have given me...
We actually have had dad's go down. We had one go straight to the floor and landed himself in the ER! Please don't do that Cory! : ) Good luck - here's hoping for 40!!
ReplyDeleteI know it's weird, but labor is actually my favorite part of being pregnant. And not because that means it's almost over. I don't know why, but I just love that day. I think it's kind of fun....we always have friends and family come visit and it's sort of like a party. But I am a very lucky girl and I have super fast and easy deliveries with very few complications. I probably just jinxed myself for number 3....just enjoy the day as much as possible! Good luck!
ReplyDeleteI too was convinced they were going to find a new way to get babies out before I had to deliver. :o). But it happens in a relatively short period of time and your nurses will get you through it. Tell Cory to sit down if he gets lightheaded. Try to stay pregnant awhile longer! Love you!
ReplyDeletethis was a great post! im laughing because i know you so well! i can just see that powder blwoing all over you! sometimes at the end when i was so clumsy i would just have to laugh otherwise i would have cried! i can only imagine how nerve racking it is for you to be in bed knowing that other things have to be done downstairs! whos going to do the dishes...cause for me i know i do them totally different then jaron would!
ReplyDeletethe weeks will pass before you know it, and then you will be in the delivery room thinkin " oh my goodness is this really the end of this, life as we know it will totally change afte this one last push!" i actually stopped pushing and asked jaron ok are you sure your ready! as if he had a choice!
we love you, and we sure love baby j already!
Hey girl - You sound like you're doing great. I loved the 2nd and 3rd trimester energy boost, too. I felt like I could conquer the world. And then I'd pass out because while the heart and mind were willing, the body just couldn't keep up.
ReplyDeleteDon't worry about labor and delivery. It's honestly not as bad as you think it's going to be. It's actually an amazing experience and you're so lucky that you're a woman and get to experience it. Honestly. You're about to enter a sorority... this is just your (first) initiation.
So excited for you and your soon-to-be family of three! Best wishes for a healthy remainder of your pregnancy and a fast (and drug-filled) labor! Get some rest now while you can!!! You're life as you know it is in its twilight. LIVE IT UP!!!
Jaynee